BE SELFISH (SOMETIMES).

Hello again, Friday, it's a pleasure to see you.

Do you ever have those days (or if you are me, weeks) that you throw a pity party for yourself? This week has been that for me, I've been drunk on pity aaaaaall week long and finally erupted in tears last night just because Greg gave me a hug while I was making dinner.

I have this problem. I've always had this problem. I am too nice. By just stating that, I feel like you are thinking that I am a self-righteous snob but I assure you that is not my purpose. What I am trying to say is that a lot of the time, by avoiding hurting someone else, you end up hurting yourself. I have a problem telling people 'no' and the majority of the time, that turns into me slowly killing myself by having too much on my plate. I tend to agree with someone, even though I disagree, to avoid the confrontation that could potentially hurt or anger them. I do too many favors that put a strain on me mentally, physically, financially, and emotionally, but never are they returned. It's both difficult and embarrassing to admit this but basically, I'm saying that because I want everyone to like me, I allow them to walk all over me.

The first step is admitting that you have a problem, right? So, now what? I think that I have a lot to work on, so much that working on one step at a time is the most effective way to go about it. I've decided to start with not stressing about the things that are completely out of my control. Easier said than done, I know, but I'm willing to work on it. When you really think about it, it's completely ridiculous that this problem even exists. If nothing that we do or say can change the circumstances, why do we put the energy that we do into worrying about it?

Alright, I'll stop rambling now. But I'd love to hear from you guys. Do you have this same problem? What are you going to do to fix it?